Hello Everyone!
My name is Trisha and I'm the author of this blog. I wanted to include this section to tell you about my history and how this journey of mine began.
I'd like to thank you for taking the time to read my healing journey- as I hope it can inspire you to start your own or help those who have already begun.
#Love&BeLoved
Before I start talking about how my appearance into the world changed things, I'll talk a bit about what life was like before I was born.
Jason and Angela were the cutest-looking couple. Many of their friends envied the family they had began to build. But- there was much more to the story than what was meeting the eye.
For starters, I was a planned teen pregnancy.
My parents had gotten pregnant before me and miscarried. This was devastating for the reality they had started to build already, so they decided to plan for me.
Throughout my mother's pregnancy, she dealt with many of life's stressful moments. My father had problems with his anger/substance abuse, and this effected the nature of their relationship.
For the first three months of infancy, I lived in my grandmother's home with my mom and dad. My father had trouble with his temper and drug usage, and my mother was caught in a hostile situation with her own trauma/ abusive relationship developed with him.
*(TRAUMA WARNING)* This next paragraph contains child abuse description-
When I was 6 weeks old I was burnt by a bottle, at 3 months old I had 3rd degree burns on my body from bathwater, and at 6 months old I was taken to the hospital because I wouldn't lift my arm. X-rays were done and multiple breaks were presented. This was my entrance into the foster system.
For the first few years of my life, I moved from one place to another. Family visits between my mother and grandparents would be arranged. However, I was strictly not to have any contact with my father up until my adoption was declared final.
At the age of three and a half, I was adopted by my biological grandmother on my father's side. My grandma had struggles with her health, and she had verbally abusive tendencies that made life no less challenging.
As I grew older, I witnessed the hardships caused by my father's imprisonment due to drugs, violence, and alcoholism.
My mother's path stumbled very dark for a while after I was taken away. She had to fight many of her own demons to become who she is today.
As history likes to repeat itself, at the young age of 16 I became a teen parent myself, facing the responsibility of raising a child with the little guidance I had received. I navigated my way through life, learning valuable lessons, and sometimes taking hard losses.
The absence of a stable family led me toward drug addiction. In fact, mine literally handed me the pipe. Despite this, I found my way out of the grip of substance abuse. I wanted better than the life I had to live for the past 18 years.
I experienced the devastating loss of many close friends, who were taken far too soon... Whether it was suicide, car accidents or drug overdoses. These tragedies deeply impacted me and shaped my perspective on life.
Grief became a constant companion on my journey, a heavy burden that I carried with me. Eventually, I chose to channel my pain into understanding and appreciating the fragility of life. I realized that every day is a gift, and it is essential to make the most of it.
These experiences have taught me the importance of treasuring the relationships I have and cherishing every moment, for we never know when it may be our last.
While grief continues to be a part of my life, it has also become a catalyst for healing and personal growth, reminding me to live with gratitude and compassion towards others.
Over the years, I have encountered numerous obstacles, including abusive relationships, failed marriages, addiction, depression, and the dysfunction within my own family. Rather than giving in to the difficulties, I have chosen to escape from the damaging cycles that have affected my life.
My story is not one of defeat, but rather a tale of resilience and triumph. I have fought against the odds and have emerged stronger, determined to create a better future for myself and my children. Through therapy, self-reflection, and a commitment to personal growth, I am steadily breaking free from the chains that once held me captive.
Today, I stand as a testament to the power and ability to overcome adversity. By sharing my experiences, I hope to inspire others who may be trapped in a similar situation. Life may have dealt me a challenging hand, but I refuse to let it define me. I am determined to forge my own path, one that is free from the pain and dysfunction of my past.
I look forward to sharing more stories with you.
-Love & Be Loved
Trisha Sullivan
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